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Name: Aimee Gender: Female
Interests: I'm slightly A.D.D. and therefore am interested in anything. . . for a limited amount of time. Expertise: yeah right! Occupation: Student Industry: Entertainment
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| Hello Xanga, it has been far too long.
It rained today. It rained and I was cold. In the rain and cold, I smelled Ohio. I was sitting in my apartment, editing a wedding, and breathed in, and I smelled it. One rain drop after another beat against my window. It's a sound that brings so much happiness and is far to rare here in California. Then I started reading a book that talks about renewing a childlike faith. The whole book deals with knowing and pursuing and being pursued by Jesus.
So there I was, with my sweatshirt, cup of coffee, and rain, reading a book about loving Jesus, and it took me back to a time when that's what I did. I lived in Ohio and I snuggled up in my favorite sweat shirt and I drank coffee and I read. And I loved Jesus and I was loved by Jesus.
Don't get me wrong, I love Jesus in LA. And He loves me here too. It's just that things were so much more simple in Ohio. I had security and direction and home cooked meals every night. :)
I'm supposed to be here. I don't know why, but I believe that with everything that I am. I'm just missing home; that happens when it rains.
On a different note, I've been re-reading the gospels. I've been reading them quickly to try to get the feel of the entire story. So many times, when I read the Bible, I go in with the intention of learning something new, of finding out something new about God, about wanting to be refined. That's not bad, but in doing that, I sometimes lose the wonder that is in the story. The story of creation and sin and redemption. The story of this 400 years of silence and then God not only speaking, but sending the very Word to earth. The story of radical truths and forgiveness and God saving the world in an unfathomable way. I love this story, of our Daddy God making a way back to Him. I love that He ran to the Prodigal, and that He still runs for us Prodigals today. I love that He didn't just save us by grace, but is gracious to us still. I love that the climax of our story doesn't even happen in this lifetime. That our climax is when the Bridegroom is finally reconciled with the Bride and then we will live in a glorious, exciting, restful, everlasting denouement.
I don't mean to sound overly dramatic or to try to sum up the Bible in a paragraph. I know I can't. It's just that, in feeling nostalgic, and missing the familiarity that is home, I'm so very thankful that God is near and that He is Constant.
Thank You Jesus for saving me. I wish the English language was large enough to have a word to describe how absolutely wonderful You are. I so very much love You.
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| Oh man, I have so much adrenaline running through me right now. I performed at the Comedy Store in Hollywood tonight. If you would have told me a year ago that I'd do stand up at a club in Los Angeles, I'd tell you to go put your white jacket back on because you're crazy. Guys, I love this. I love it so much. I certainly have a long way to go, but they invited me to come back so I'm super excited. I'm so thankful that God is giving me this opportunity. That's it. Nothing too deep or anything, I just have way too much adrenaline to fall asleep right now, I'm so thankful for this adventure that I'm on, and everyone is asleep. I needed someone to tell, so there you go xanga world. Thanks for listening. :) | | |
| EDIT: Quote of the day: "So I had a funny conversation in my head with someone. . . you guys understand that I have conversations in my head." - Emily I went cross country skiing for the first time this past Christmas - somewhere in the middle of nowhere Wisconsin. Before taking off a man gave me one piece of advice - "If you're not falling, you're not trying." That being said, I should get a medal for how hard I tried. The thing is - I didn't fall when it made sense to fall. I didn't fall on all of the hills or sharp turns. I fell very . . . randomly. When the ground was flat and we were gliding along, I'd just fall. At one point I looked up and asked God if He was laughing at me. But it was beautiful. About a hundred yards into the course you could no longer see the camp or other people around you. It was just trees and woods and tracks of various wild animals and snow - lots of snow. Snow covered everything. The only way I know how to describe it is Narnia. If Narnia were real, it would have looked like this. I half expected Aslan to come out at any second. At one point, I was so far behind everyone (well, that was every point) that I stopped for a minute to get my bearings and just look around. I started to sing. "God of Wonders" was running through my head and I was amazed at the beauty of His creation. The trees were standing so tall, so beautifully pointing to God. Telling anyone who would be willing to stop for a minute and look up that He is there and He is very real. They were so clearly pointing to God that I stopped singing. I didn't want to interrupt with my song. So I kept skiing, or falling in a gliding motion, and was filled with joy that the God who skillfully crafted those woods with a word skilfully created me, and could actually love me like a Father. Conquer death as my Savior. And care about my life. I thought about singing out loud again but there was no reason, the trees already were. | | |
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